Because reality is harsh.10:06 PM
Sunday, March 30, 2014
I know this is not really a good place to write how I am really feeling inside of me but I really need to vent my emotions now.
Well, things have been kinda of shitty and I thought I would have forgotten everything after my Japan trip. Apparently, it does not seems to be the case and every time i look at the photos, the pain just crept in.
I am in a totally bad state isn't it? Liking someone when he doesn't even know it. Worse, he has like million of girls around him and he doesn't even noticed about my existence. Sadly, yes, that's the truth. This world is cruel uh?
To be honest, I am tired of my life. No goals, no excitement. The funny thing is, here I am chatting with a stranger online and telling him all my problems because he told me he was a stranger and he can't judge. Poor me, have to resort to speaking to a stranger online to share my troubles just because I don't know if anyone I know will just listen to me and not judge.
Struggling to make a decision. It's actually not a hard one but.. I don't want to regret in the future. Need to think about it even more..
Now, I am just living my life as the days goes by. Nothing excites me anymore, yes, not even clubbing. Maybe hanging out with friends can keep me happy but it's only when I am with them. Work has become a routine for me in my daily life. Sleep too.
Too afraid of being judge.
Too afraid to show how I really feel.