Pain makes people change3:42 AM
Friday, December 27, 2013
Today is just a terrible day.
I finally understand why my friends always tell me not to ask if I am not prepared to know the answer. I should have listened, shouldn't have asked the question. And now, I have regretted it.
I am thankful for people asking me and being concern about me if I am feeling alright a not. I always don't like to trouble people with my troubles. To be honest, how many out there are really concern about you? I know some of my friends are really concerned about me but I really do not know how to explain what I am going through to you guys.
Emotionally stressed up. Unable to explained how I am feeling and I also do not know why I am feeling this way too.
When I saw you today and went up to say hi, your reaction just hurt me, making me regretted my decision for going up to you to say hi.
Certain things still hurt even though it was over for such a long time. Hidden pain, hidden scars that I have hidden, and today, the pain is back. We are now just strangers with memories.
Everyone is complaining about being last seen by others on whatsapp. When someone is treating you as someone special, and all you do is just last seen him/her on whatsapp, it will simply just tell the person that their text is not worth replying too and they are not worth a few seconds of your time. And sadly, the person who gets ignore always have to act like everything is alright.
Today have been a really long day for me. Underwent so much emotional turbulence. For now, I just want to sleep the night away. Or maybe, drink, get drunk and party the night away? Yea, maybe I should just do that.
I will be fine one day, when I get used to all the pain that I have received. Soon, the pain will be nothing new to me and I will get used to it.
Note to self: do not trust anyone
You're gone from here
Soon you will disappear
Fading into beautiful light
