LIVING IN THE DREAM1:40 AM
Wednesday, October 9, 2013
Never been so tired of life. It has been too fucked up with too many things happening this week. People who I can talked to are getting lesser and lesser. It weird if you don't speak to that person for a long time and suddenly just speak to them and start pouring out your sorrows right? Always going to dreams to escape reality because reality is just too harsh on me.
It's raining out there as I am typing this blog post. Days like this, I just want to cuddle right beside you to sleep or even just to text you asking you to remember to cover yourself with your blanket and have a good sleep. But.. we aren't talking to each other. It just seems to me you can continue your life pretty well without me too.
Maybe I just fucking cared too much. Cared too much about what others think and how they feel and even if it makes me unhappy, I won't say anything. Not wanting to speak up during an argument on the phone is because I don't want to say things I will regret once I put down the phone. I don't want to upset you with my words because I know I am just saying angry words in anger. I am hurt when you shouted at me on the phone..
Everything has changed. The way we communicate, the tolerance we had for one another, it's different already.
Maybe, it's just pure foolishness on my part. I am dumb, pure dumb.
Frustrating, stressed up life. Can we just go and drink, party and dance all night to forget all our unhappiness? Can we just party the night away? How fun will that be....
