If you give up on me, i'll give up on me too.5:32 PM
Tuesday, April 30, 2013
Decided to clear the photos of us and the songs you sang to me in my phone. I shouldn't keep dragging things any longer.
My heart felt heavy when i saw the photos of us and all memories came rushing back. Told myself to be strong and not to cry. Reminded myself that at least we had memories together, at least we spent two years together.
Saw pictures of my friend getting proposed, the proposal ring and i thought of the ring you bought for me. It's still in my cupboard. I remembered you kept asking me to wear it but i can't bear to wear it out because it's so pretty. Guess, i won't have the chance to wear it anymore. Once, i thought that after you left me alone in my life, i won't be able to get up. I thought that if you give up on me, on our love, i will give up on myself and everything else too. And yes, i did give up in everything. I admit i didn't give a damn during the attachment of special posting. Wouldn't even get my thoughts straight. All i thought was just you and more tears came. At least, we still shared the same things, the thumbdrive, the watch and pluto. At least, we still have something in common. At least, not everything is lost.
Just got to snap out of it. Now, i don't know if i have get back up or still giving up on my life. I guess, i am just getting back up slowly, very slowly. Part of me still wants to go back to your arms, into your comfort. Got too dependent on you i guess.
Well, at least i sort things out.
