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11:48 PM

Friday, April 5, 2013

I realised i really miss blogging a lot.

It's a place where i can vent out my fustrations and sadness. A place where after typing out the blog post, i will feel better straight away.

Before i went on my korea trip, i told myself on the 28/03/13, will be the day i stopped giving him the chance and will stopped hoping for him to come back to me. Now that i am back from the korea trip, i think i am feeling a little better? Even after seeing his facebook and instagram update, it seems to not have any effect on me despite me seeing him with the girl in the photos. Guess i have already move on a little. Happy that i have made improvement. Going to try a lot harder to move on.

Whenever i think about him, i will keep telling myself that he is not a good guy and he is unable to give me happiness. Kept reminding myself how he is unable to send me home, unable to pay for dates, unable to wait for me to be home before sleeping, venting his fustrations on me. But i guess, i am also at fault. I can never be the girl he wants me to become. The girl who is able to exercise with him, be caring and not demanding. It's never possible because i am not the kind of girl and i don't want to change myself for a guy. It's not worth it.

If i changed myself for a guy, doesn't this means he isn't the one for me?

If he love me, he wouldn't let me go through all this hurt and sadness.

For now, i am glad that we end things before we continue to hurt each other deeper.